DOVEBIRD

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TEARS

Each tear that I release

A purpose for there is

For hurt joy and depth of heart

Emotions do thus live

I've wailed in pools of pain

For another soul whose lost

When words their need could not mend

I 've stayed and risked the cost

My tears exude such grief at times

I'm sure that I could die

I take a breath and hold it in

And breathe out in labored sighs

At times my tears are pity

For none other than myself

And yet I rise above my fears

To purpose better health

For surely I'll feel comfort

When emotions fill the space

Of each tiny little droplet

My eyes do let escape

Yet there are tears too

From depths of love overflown

That softly trail down my cheeks

From feelings yet exposed

Tears of laughter tears of great joy

Wrapped in these glistening beads

Oh how glorious the gift of tears

Each one a tiny seed

Yes tears are things that mean so much

And noone will quite know

Unless they have the heart to ask

Why do those sweet tears flow

~Dove~

1999

~TOP~

Piercing Agony Is Never-ending

How could PAIN describe such utter agony

Most of my days are spent looking haggardly

Could you believe that I'm only 38

12 years ago I had such a promising slate

My youth has been stolen unable to be

The Mom I know that's inside of me

Such simple things are all a huge task

When I am done only more pain to mask

I've tried every cure that money can buy

My purse is all empty I sit here and cry

What do I do Lord my children need me

They don't have a father to help oversee

Oh Lord can't you help me this flare doesn't end

Tell me the secrets why my body won't mend

So you see Lord you're all I have now

Send me some hope to wipe my sore brow

Be my strength Lord when I just want to quit

Send an angel to soothe me, beside me to sit

It's so hard to write now my shoulders like a knife

Someone help me overcome this painful life

2/28/01

~TOP~

THE FMS INSIDE OF ME

Over here I say I'm heavy as lead

I ache so badly can't get out of this bed

Don't you see that I need someone's strong hand

This disease so invisible a tightening band

Pretty on rare good days sick underneath

I hide that my limbs tremble like a leaf

God I'm so weak, so exhausted, so scared

If only my family would show that they care

Here I sit in anger watching life pass me by

No one really knows how damn hard I try

Other's out buzzing over here over there

Such simple things a luxury their so unaware

Sometimes the Sun shines yet it's black as night

I'm stuck in this body God it just isn't right

So here's the escape these tiny little pills

My doctor says take them no cure for your ills

Today my eyes are swollen dark circles beneath

The color of white taints both of my cheeks

If the D.D. don't kill me the drugs will have a go

In destroying a beautiful woman so many used to know

3/1/01

~TOP~

SUCH A PLACE AS THIS

Water, warm crystal blue green water promising freedom

I see her, feel her and touch her though she is within me only

A slight bend a second or two and all her glory is mine

Enveloped now past my arms I gently glide down to the nip of my chin

and feel NO MORE of gravity's pain

Holding me supporting me and dancing inside my ears

I close my eyes I breathe in deep the air around this mystic

soothing healing liquid

No travails they all slip away only ripples caressing a body so

thirsty for PEACE

Laying motionless floating held up forever by the essence of earth

No sound to disturb but my own beating heart and for a moment

I connect,,,,,,myself and nature are one

Nothing exists now but the FREEDOM from pain and the knowledge

that I am there

3/01/01

~TOP~

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	DOVEBIRD smurray@dmrtc.net TEARS Each tear that I release A purpose for there is For hurt joy and depth of heart Emotions do thus live I've wailed in pools of pain For another soul whose lost When words their need could not mend I 've stayed and risked the cost My tears exude such grief at times I'm sure that I could die I take a breath and hold it in And breathe out in labored sighs At times my tears are pity For none other than myself And yet I rise above my fears To purpose better health For surely I'll feel comfort When emotions fill the space Of each tiny little droplet My eyes do let escape Yet there are tears too From depths of love overflown That softly trail down my cheeks From feelings yet exposed Tears of laughter tears of great joy Wrapped in these glistening beads Oh how glorious the gift of tears Each one a tiny seed Yes tears are things that mean so much And noone will quite know Unless they have the heart to ask Why do those sweet tears flow ~Dove~ 1999 ~TOP~ Piercing Agony Is Never-ending How could PAIN describe such utter agony Most of my days are spent looking haggardly Could you believe that I'm only 38 12 years ago I had such a promising slate My youth has been stolen unable to be The Mom I know that's inside of me Such simple things are all a huge task When I am done only more pain to mask I've tried every cure that money can buy My purse is all empty I sit here and cry What do I do Lord my children need me They don't have a father to help oversee Oh Lord can't you help me this flare doesn't end Tell me the secrets why my body won't mend So you see Lord you're all I have now Send me some hope to wipe my sore brow Be my strength Lord when I just want to quit Send an angel to soothe me, beside me to sit It's so hard to write now my shoulders like a knife Someone help me overcome this painful life 2/28/01 ~TOP~ THE FMS INSIDE OF ME Over here I say I'm heavy as lead I ache so badly can't get out of this bed Don't you see that I need someone's strong hand This disease so invisible a tightening band Pretty on rare good days sick underneath I hide that my limbs tremble like a leaf God I'm so weak, so exhausted, so scared If only my family would show that they care Here I sit in anger watching life pass me by No one really knows how damn hard I try Other's out buzzing over here over there Such simple things a luxury their so unaware Sometimes the Sun shines yet it's black as night I'm stuck in this body God it just isn't right So here's the escape these tiny little pills My doctor says take them no cure for your ills Today my eyes are swollen dark circles beneath The color of white taints both of my cheeks If the D.D. don't kill me the drugs will have a go In destroying a beautiful woman so many used to know 3/1/01 ~TOP~ SUCH A PLACE AS THIS Water, warm crystal blue green water promising freedom I see her, feel her and touch her though she is within me only A slight bend a second or two and all her glory is mine Enveloped now past my arms I gently glide down to the nip of my chin and feel NO MORE of gravity's pain Holding me supporting me and dancing inside my ears I close my eyes I breathe in deep the air around this mystic soothing healing liquid No travails they all slip away only ripples caressing a body so thirsty for PEACE Laying motionless floating held up forever by the essence of earth No sound to disturb but my own beating heart and for a moment I connect,,,,,,myself and nature are one Nothing exists now but the FREEDOM from pain and the knowledge that I am there 3/01/01 ~TOP~